Finding Faith in the Dark

“Then Jesus told him, ‘Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed”’ (John 20:29).

Lately, I have been walking through what I am going to call, a spiritual growth spurt. This spiritual growth spurt consisted of a darkness and a very tight, narrow passage. This squeezing came with a lot of pain. I always thought that faith was taking steps consistently forward to accomplish what God would have for us. What is this? I was going backward and not forward. Did I miss something? I felt many times that I wanted to curl up into a fetal position and just weep. I had very little courage to move forward. I wanted out of this situation fast.

That narrow passage acted like an extrusion process which forces materials through a die or mold, and it is comes out a different shape. That dark, narrow, tight passage was there for a reason. It was to force me through that perfect mold and to allow me to come out cleaner with a new perspective on the other side, which would involve forgiveness.

My pain came from my own sin of unforgiveness which I was holding on to pretty tightly. I am currently finding out that faith is at its best in the darkness. God has me right where I am supposed to be at this time, so I need to take courage and move on with the extrusion process. This is all part of God’s purpose.

I am choosing faith in God’s wisdom that He loves me enough to squeeze that things out of me.


God Means It For Good

image“As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today” (Genesis 50:20).

Sometimes our circumstances stink. It’s a

fact of life. Joseph could probably relate to that. This is a guy whose life went from bad to worse. He was thrown into a pit by his brothers, sold into slavery, accused of attempted rape, and thrown into prison. This kid’s life seemed pretty bad. Throughout this whole ordeal, Joseph could have easily just given up on life, but God had a purpose for Joseph through all of it. Because he was sold into slavery in Egypt, he was able to help the people prepare for a great famine that would have killed a lot of people.

Sometimes, you do not know why your life is going the way that it is, but you can rest assured that God does have a plan and He will use these experiences to help mold you for a specific purpose. You may not always see it, but God is working.

I think Romans 8:28 says it best: “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” This is the reassurance that we need sometimes. No matter how bad things may get, we can be sure that God is working this stuff together for good.