“Then Jesus told him, ‘Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed”’ (John 20:29).
Lately, I have been walking through what I am going to call, a spiritual growth spurt. This spiritual growth spurt consisted of a darkness and a very tight, narrow passage. This squeezing came with a lot of pain. I always thought that faith was taking steps consistently forward to accomplish what God would have for us. What is this? I was going backward and not forward. Did I miss something? I felt many times that I wanted to curl up into a fetal position and just weep. I had very little courage to move forward. I wanted out of this situation fast.
That narrow passage acted like an extrusion process which forces materials through a die or mold, and it is comes out a different shape. That dark, narrow, tight passage was there for a reason. It was to force me through that perfect mold and to allow me to come out cleaner with a new perspective on the other side, which would involve forgiveness.
My pain came from my own sin of unforgiveness which I was holding on to pretty tightly. I am currently finding out that faith is at its best in the darkness. God has me right where I am supposed to be at this time, so I need to take courage and move on with the extrusion process. This is all part of God’s purpose.
I am choosing faith in God’s wisdom that He loves me enough to squeeze that things out of me.